I'm Ready!

April 8, 2022

2:27 AM

Yes, I know what you’re thinking. I should definitely be asleep. Sleepy I am, but I can’t sleep until I get this journal entry off my chest.

I think I’m ready…..ready for a relationship. Every good and bad, bittersweet moment of it. I’m ready for a partner that I can be a friend and a lover all at the same time. I’m ready to get to know someone. I’m ready to put in the time and build a relationship. I want a connection. A deep connection. I want to be able to have fun, be myself and completely open and honest with someone. I want to take things slow but progress into commitment. Then, I want to have another child in like the next five years. I don’t want to have a child after thirty-five if I’m being completely honest. Gone head and push out my last child or two, but dassit! Haha! But I want all this only if the feeling is mutual and it’s a forever thing. Yes, my sappy ass is ready for love and ready to fall right in it. I don’t care, I don’t care. I am a sap, emotional, sensitive, intense lover. I was never made to be out in these streets! It is not for me.

In the meantime, until that person comes along, I’ll stick to myself like glue. No friends with benefits, ‘fb’s’, or hot girl summer for me. I’m over that phase. I’ll try to date and explore my options, but that’s slim to none because most guys aren’t dating these days. They’re still stuck in the ‘fb’ stage. *rolls eyes* I’m over it. The only hot girl summer I’ll be having is dating myself, taking a few trips and getaways, making sales, finishing school and continuing my healing journey. So far I’ve actually started doing these things already and am very much enjoying myself! Maybe I’ll share in my next journal entry.

-Marti Mar